I've become the thing I hate most
Always caught up thinking
Haunted by your ghost
I always find myself sinking

Sinking to a new low
I can't believe this happened
I feel so incredibly far below
So far deep, and trapped in

I feel I may never surface
Struggling with all my might
I fear this may be without purpose
Is this worth the fight?

Wishing you were here
Or could even understand…
I know you won't see it clear
Always trying to withstand

Hiding your emotions
As if it makes you any stronger
Testing my devotion
See if it lasts any longer

I was always so committed
Always trying to keep strong
In the end only to be omitted
What possibly went wrong?

You wouldn't ever believe
A single word I even spoke
Always ready to misconceive
As if trying to provoke

If only you would trust
You would see what you had
You need to readjust
Or things will always go bad

You truly need to open up
Tell me how I make you feel
I know you didn't want a breakup
This isn't worth the ordeal

You made me feel alive
For you I'd do anything
Always ready to take that dive
You made my heart sing

I hope that you realize this
Preferably someday soon
Every day I still reminisce
Heart swelling like a balloon